during service today [12 July 2009], i kinda like, felt God's prompting to blog here.
this whole week wasn't a week of uncountable impacting encounters with God but i feel that i've found back my 1st love.
i haven't been exactly the most faithful person when it comes to my relationship with God and all but really, throughout my entire Christian life, i've seen God bringing me through the most difficult times and revealing various things about not just Himself but also about myself.
and i won't try to deny how horrible a "Christian" i am at times.
but yet, i really cannot comprehend God's understanding and consistant love and grace that is poured upon me.
if God was a human, He'd have already deemed me a failed Christian.
during service today, i saw in the spirit a vision.
it looked something like that:
not the most beautiful picture but nevermind, you get the idea. =))
so yupp, i saw that in the spirit so i was asking God, "what's with that image? what are You trying to tell me?"
and guess what.
i received a revelation.
the cross was huge, i was so small, there was no one else except Jesus on the cross and myself. [yes, Jesus was on the cross just that i don't want to insult our Handsome and fit Jesus]
as cliche as it may sound,
God was telling me that i may be so small, so insignificant but Jesus/God is so huge, so much larger than all the things that i may be struggling with. and "God's grace is more than sufficient for (me)"
and i guess God knew that i really hungered today. i just really wanted the relationship to be so strong, even stronger than what it was before, i want to build a foundation that is so strong that nothing can ever topple the throne that i'll build for Jesus in my life. i really want to go back to the very basics and find God all over again.
& i think God is really extremely timely.
for the past few weeks, be it in cell group or service, there would always be messages about going back to our 1st love.
i guess it is God's way of preparing me for a time as such.
i felt Jesus smiling at me even though He was nailed to the cross, like He's more than willing to hang there just for me. like even if the rest of the world did not exist, He'll still choose to do it, just for me.
& the fact that there was only me at the foot of the cross made me realise Jesus will devote all His attention, all His sacrifices, all His pain etc to me/you.
when there's no one else around, even if only one person [you/me] existed on this earth, Jesus would still have done it. even if He needs to die on the cross all over again, He would still choose to do it.
right from the bottom of the hill of Calvery all the way to the moment when He dies, He would take pride in every single second just for this one person.
& i believe God wants us to work in a manner that even when there's no one else around, when no one's watching us, our faithfulness to God will still prevail, like how God's does.
that we'd still be on our knees worshiping Him like when we 1st received Christ. =))
God's good. always.
and here's a song that has always been very dear to me ever since SAJC LifeConcert 2009.
go youtube it, it's about God's love for us. =))
Love Song by Third Day.
I've heard it said that a man would climb a mountain
Just to be with the one he loves
How many times has he broken that promise
It has never been done.
I've never climbed the highest mountain
But I walked the hill of calvary
Just to be with you, I'd do anything
There's no price I would not pay
Just to be with you, I'd give anything
I would give my life away.
I've heard it said that a man would swim the ocean
Just to be with the one he loves
How may times has he broken that promise
It can never be done
I've never swam the deepest ocean
But I walked upon the raging sea
I know that you don't understand
the fullness of My love
How I died upon the cross for your sins
And I know that you don't realize
how much that I gave you
But I promise, I would do it all again.
Just to be with you, I've done everything
There's no price I did not pay
Just to be with you, I gave everything
Yes, I gave my life away.
Vera Loves Jesus & N317 & ET Zone. =)
perhaps N318 would spring up some day [please don't tell me about the current existing N318 LOL.]
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